I am a Survivor...I keep continue every day to find ways to survive. I was sexual abuse by my oldest brother and middle brother and two uncles. When I started kindergarten children would bully me. Today I am 52 years and have no good memories of my childhood years. I live with a scar on my head about 2 inches long where brother hit me with a 2x4-I live with on my right hand half a pinky missing. I survived I am alive today. The hospital started to become my second home for I been taken to the hospital many times by father and grandmother. My father said to the doctors I was a clumpsy little girl. I started to believe that because I was repeatly been told this from my father. I have confronted my oldest brother and he still today denies it. I have found it my heart to forgive him and each day I am learning to move on with my life. Because of the many years I have been abused I live with PTSD and psudeo seizures. It is hard for me still yet to trust folks and to make friends, so I do not get close to anybody. God has brought a wonderful man in my life. When we had children together I was so over protective with them and the first day I held each one of them in my arms I whispered in their ears promising them to protective them in every which way and to love them unconditionally. When my children became adults they went astray and met spouses we disapprove of. I try to keep that promise I made to them but they have told me, Mom we need to live our on lives. As hard it is to see them go down the road of distruction and the choices they have made my husband ad I had to stand back and let them learn and grow but they are our children even though they are adults I told them we will always be there for them and our grandchildren. I have dreams and goals that I try to succeed and accomplish. I have accompish two of my dreams. I earned my High School diploma when I wa sin my early 30's and in the year of 2009 I was 49 years old I earned my Associate degree in Criminal Justice-working on my goal is to work in the field of bein a Victim Advoate. Lord's Will.